Anxious

[SethSquall]

Peom I wrote. I do suffer from paranoia and depression and i get really, really anxious. I am getting medication and all that jive. This is sorta how my mind works when i get anxious.


Anxious

That doesn’t look, feel, sound, taste or smell right.
Even though it doesn’t make a sound.
Even though it doesn’t smell.
Why would you taste that?
Something doesn’t seem right anyway.
I’m tired, no, I’m dying. NO. I’m Just being paranoid I’m sure.
Remember the breathing.
Remember the train of thought.
Why? It’s never worked before.
No, that’s exactly the negative thinking that. Does. Not. Help.
I cant breath all the way in, why, I got pins and needles, why.
Stop, Train, Breath.
Take the tablets, yea take them and get side effects.
I don’t want a seizure, why would I have a seizure?
Why can’t I relax? Why the Demons?
I’m getting a beating when I get home.
No broken home, Just my broken mind.
Well at least I went out, Ya’know. Had fun.
Fun?