I will answer all your PM's publicly!!!! :) Just to forwarn you. :)

Everyday I wake up, I ask myself what I'm going to do today. What is there for me to life for in this new life of mine. I have my own home to maintain. I have a dog that needs constant attention, and a guy to cuddle with. There's something missing. I need some form of spirituality, not just by reading my bible, or going to hear Public speakers every Sunday. Time to take the next step, and reinstate myself with that I've lost. My parents, my brother, and sisters, in the physical sense. I was put on this earth to worship God everyday. Seeing nature in it's purest forms, taking for granted the gift of life, on a steady road of gaining more money, but can't be blinded by that anymore. I'm growing up in more ways than one, but that's something my parents couldn't do for me because I was too eager to "live" in whatever adolescent sense that meant to me then. These days I live now are strange and unfulfilled, and I'm not taking it anymore.