Happy Star Wars day to all my friends and May the Fourth be with you all! :) ♥

So I've decided to do something I've been wanting to do for a while. I have decided to take piano lessons and finally learn how to play! My husband's best friend has decided to give me lessons when Jared and I move to Arizona in January. I've decided that once I'm advanced enough, i want my first advanced piece to be Mozart's 11th piano sonata in a major. I'm getting stoked to finally learn how to play my favorite instrument of all time :)

Well Jared and I got news that his best friend, Ben, that lives in Arizona wants us to move there. Ben has decided to give us a place to stay and is able to get Jared a job where he works when we move to Arizona. We are saving our money to move there as we speak. Jared's looking for a couple temporary part-time jobs here in New York and will be putting his paychecks aside in a saving's account so that we can officially move to Arizona in January! I'm totally excited to leave New York behind and start a new life adventure in a different place :)

So I was on PSN a few months ago and this girl that just met me was trying to be friends with me so I allowed this friendship to start. Well recently she told me she was in love with me and the funny thing is not only does she not know me or anything about me but I’m straight and don’t like girls. Well she’s been pushing her limits for far too long now, I kept being honest with her telling her that I was straight and didn’t feel the same way about her. She backed off for a while and I thought I was in the clear. Well the other day,she kept messaging me telling me she was in love with me and needed me to love her because her parents ruined her birthday. I tried to comfort her and tell her that I didn’t love her without making her birthday worse. She then proceeded to ask to talk to my husband. So what do I do? I did what anyone trying to get their point across would do: I pretend to be my husband and talk to her. Well she thought she was talking to Jared and she came out and told him that she was in love with me and then she proceeded to ask him if she could “love on me.” Well I went on as Jared to tell her that I’m straight and that I was not interested. As Jared, I told her that Jared doesn’t share me with anyone. Well she still didn’t take the hint and asked if she could be my friend with benefits. As Jared, I told her that I wasn’t gonna change who I am and pretend to be something I’m not. Well when I came back on as myself, she told me still that she was in love with me and was sad because I didn’t love her. So I asked her how she could love someone she doesn’t know a single thing about. She hasn’t talked to me since as far as I know but it was very awkward. It’s sad that she couldn’t take no for an answer so she had to ask my husband to convince me to be gay for her. It’s sad what our world is coming to because people can't realize that No means no, not “ok I’ll try again later.”

Well I received some pretty sad news recently. I found out that because of my numerous health problems, I cannot have children. It's totally bumming me out because I have to see all my friends get pregnant and I have to see how exciting it is for them and I have to be happy for them all while sitting back and realizing, that'll never be me. I thought I was OK but in the end, I realized I'm not. I'm distraught. Needless to say I'm pretty jealous as of now of all of my friends that can have kids. :/