5 years and my personal struggles

[Shadow_God_10]

Alright. For some of the older members you may know me. as for the newer members... get ready because you'll be seeing A LOT of me.

Where have I been for the last 5 years? Well let's hop in a time machine and travel to 2008. I landed my first girlfriend ever, She was my entire world and we dated for four years. I played FFR rounds every now and then to kill time in classes during high school. September 20th 2012 she and I broke up. She had feelings for another man and chose him over me.

Being the sensitive individual I am.. I was devastated which resulted in me running to alcohol. I was drunk everyday from September 20th to November 4th (that's about 45-60 days if my math is right). I eventually got over it and dated another girl who was very "popular" on instagram which made me think "wait a minute... people know me on the internet...FFR!" so I came back strong until...my laptop decided "OHEY LOL MOTHERBOARD IS DEAD!". the other girl and I broke up this weekend because I was sick and tired of fighting and arguing all the time. I don't need that shit in my life.

Between all of this was my working life. I landed a job as a security guard for a small company doing film productions...shows like Alphas, Lost Girl, Flashpoint, XIII, Warehouse 13, and Transporter. They eventually stopped giving me shifts which again led me to more alcohol consumption out of frustration. As of March 1st I landed a job with a bigger and better company which I've thrived on. I've been labeled employee of the month and it's not even April yet but regardless my alcoholism nullifies my personal accomplishments in my life.

Why am I rambling on about my own life as if people on this forum care? Because it's a community with mature (well....85% of you), honest adults who know about the frustrations of not having work, dealing with first loves and the works.

If any of you have any suggestions or advice per my destructive alcoholism it would be greatly appreciated.