I wrote this poem/song... Not rlly sure what it is yet. Anyways, I was sitting in my car and this popped into my head. It somewhat reveals what I am feeling. I'm glad that I can use writing as an outlet to release my pain cause otherwise I would be a complete, and utter mess. Let me know what you think.

Sitting alone
Feeling so cold
Would think I was dead
But my heart is still pounding in my chest

Wishing you were here
Feeling so weird
Losing my mind
The world is so unkind

Searching for a hope
That's lost its way
Trying to find the words
I need to say

Never knowing
The end results
My feelings growing
It never stops

Shallow breathing
It hurts my chest
Heart is slowly beating
Have no regrets

But can't say just yet
Cause times are hard
Its like making a bet
Dealing your last card

The pain is unreal
But life keeps going
Its like a spinning real
That keeps unrolling

I can try to hide my pain
Inside these dark walls
I'm slowly going insane
But no one knows it all

Reality they say
Well I'm sick of this sh*t
Always acting out these plays
Am I just a misfit?

Have to keep feeling
Or they say I'm robotic
It's never healing
Soon I'll be psychotic

Knowing there's one thing on this earth
That can make or break you
It feels like a curse
If they never keep you

So much power
In a human beings hands
Like their in a tower
Watching you be buried in the sand

Not even coming down
So you keep going under
You might as well drown
As they tear you asunder

Life is no fairytale
It has no happy ending
This is my tale to tell
My life keeps on bending

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