A grown-ass 18-year-old guy about to start crying and blubbering like a little baby bitch because I'm going through all of my old comments and messages and just remembering how much fucking fun I had on here talking to everyone. And it makes me sad because I know that just about everyone I knew and talked to has moved on and here I am on a laptop just looking and staring and reading. When I joined this site, I was going through a fucked up period in my life. I was fucked. up. And all of my friends that I chatted with helped me through that... what... 3 years of my life where in real life I was a fucking zombie because of the medication I was taking? I loved being on here and talking and getting to know people, and even though I will never see these people irl (most likely) I considered them my brothers and sisters. And after that fucked up zombie period of my life... I bounced. Gone. Poof. Not even a goodbye to my friends. I feel like such a shitbag for that and it's been bothering me all day today. Yeah, instead of studying for these mid-terms that my teachers are assaulting me with, I was worried about all these people who I feel like I've let down by not even saying bye. I guess I still am that little kid I was when I first joined.

Nate, Justin, Power, Nami, Jackie, Liz, Misu, Cray, Adam, and everyone else I may accidentally be forgetting: Thank y'all. I know none of you are on here anymore and I'm probably saying this to a random kid who happened across my profile, but thank y'all. I still think about all of you sometimes, and I hope y'all have good lives and you all continue to kick major ass. Hopefully I still have some sheer dumb fucking luck, and some of you will log on and read this. I'm sorry for not saying bye.

And before anyone gets misty-eyed, I want to drop this random advice:
When life gives you lemons, make orange juice and leave everyone wondering how the fuck you did it.

Peace
-Ben

So many memories... spent like, what, 4 years actually on here? I don't think anybody is gonna read this, but you know... I miss talking to y'all. I really do. EVeryone I knew on here is fucking awesome lol. So much shit has happened I can hardly keep up. For those of you reading this, if you remember me... I dunno, comment here? Is that how this shit works?

What would you do? o-o